internship day.

i had started my internship yesterday :)
my place or my desk adalah y paling kanan skali dlm pejabat tu. y paling di corner bilik lah senang. haha.

next to me is a web designer,Azmi. he's from sarawak but staying here.

next to azmi is kak fiza. she's an internship student too but she will be staying here only until end of August. :(

my supervisor is a system analyst,kak yati.. since kat sini hanya ada 2 org system analyst so dia sgt busy. harini dia outstation dahh.

i do hope everything will went well here..

all of them seems very busy. tadi bos panggil pasal satu projek ni,masing masing ucap gudluck pada y kena panggil tu. haiii mcm present psm plak tgk. @,@.

i have to arrive here before 8.30. but kul 7.30 aku dah sampai tahu? sbb kena hantar iwan n ayong pergi sekolah skali.

so rasanya boleh dah start study apa y patut. kbai.

suspicious activity

so, for the past few days, i can't sign in into my google account. the account that i have for this blog.
nak sign in dari phone lagi lah tak boleh kan. asyik kata disabled je. cacat ke?

it was a havoc in my head.

why now? why? why? have i done something unexpectedly? did i violate the terms and condition??
gila apa sampai boleh disabled. ;'(

so , harini bukak la lappy , contact 'google customer services'.

follow instruction and state what's my problem.
and within 5 minutes an email came to  my alternate email.
stating i need to verify my account through phone. i can choose their verification number through SMS or VOICE CALL.

rasa macam tak thrill la kan pilih SMS, so i chose the other one.
klik.

tak sampai seminit, dapat satu call, terpampang 'Voice Call'. *dalam hati mengharapkan perkataan 'GOOGLE Call' hihi

kalau laju camtu, sure system y call kann.
but sumpah laju gila.
sangat sangat cekap .

so the system said my verification number, and i typed it into the box.

klik sana klik sini then setelll.
but i do get this thing here ->

and i was like, 

how the hell is this thing happen?

after lama berfikir, this is what i thought.

1. i've been using the same password for different log in and account. any account.

2. i still didn't change my password for the past six month.

selama ni i know it is tremendously dangerous. but i never applied it sebab rasa siapa y nak buat camni kan. i am not an important person.

but hey, i realised, sebab tak important la seronok orang buat target nak berlatih jadi hacker.

sometimes it's not the hacker, sometimes it's just their software y boleh collect all our private data.

so lepas ni, kena tukar semua password. urghh.

result exam boleh buat menangis. redha.pasrah. over confident. that's it.

i can't sleep.
the fact is,
i am too scared.
scared of everything.
am i do it right?
am i doing the right thing?
am i?
am i?
the questions will never be the same again.

this is about making yourself better for good. not only for marriage.

read from a page in FB.

Oh, sebenarnya saya mahu share sesuatu dari lecturer yang saya hormati. Dalam kelas tadi, ada seorang sahabat bertanya,
"Doktor rasa sesuai tak kahwin muda masa tengah belajar?"
Jawapan Doktor sangat menarik bagi saya.
"Kalau saya ada anak perempuan yang minta kahwin masa belajar, akhlaknya bagus, pengurusan dirinya tersusun, hubungan dengan Allah terjaga, saya akan kahwinkan dia terus. Lebih lagi kalau satu kelas atau satu universiti. Tapi kalau anak perempuan saya yang minta nak kawen tu, hidupnya dengan TV, akhlaknya entah kemana, solatnya di hujung waktu, tentu saya tak bagi."
"Why?" soal saya dalam hati. Kemudian hati saya jawab kembali, "Yelah. Tak bersedia la tu."
Tapi jawapan Doktor cukup berbeza.
"Kalau anak perempuan saya tu, akhlak tak jaga dan saya bagi dia kawen. What do you expect from her husband? A very good husband? Sedang janji Allah lelaki yang baek adalah untuk oerempuan yang baek. Anak perempuan saya belum cukup baek,saya bimbang dia bawa balik calon yang juga tidak baek."
Jawapan yang ringkas,tapi bermakna buat yang ingin bermuhasabah diri.Saya suka pendekatan Dr Ridhwan.
Antara tip laen yang saya berjaya kaut adalah pesanan Dr pada kami.
"Lepas ni bila u all kawen, ada isteri/suami, then suami/isteri u all buat masalah/sakit.. Benda pertama yang u all kena buat adalah solat taubat. Sebab dosa kita,boleh jadi sebab isteri/suami/anak jadi nakal, tak dengar orang dan sebagainya"
Reflecting. It is the concept. Sebelum kita nak tuduh orang lain salah,kita tengok diri kita sendiri dulu bagaimana. Terbaik tips Dr!
# SEBARKAN agar ibu bapa dan rakan-rakan membacanya!
TULISAN : Aidil Sahipaludin 

a soft reminder to me, to you and you.

and so i will not easily forget about this humble reminder. i'll put it here.

hati.

akhir-akhir ni
hati sendiri seperti tak tahu
tak tahu mahu buat keputusan
keputusan sendiri

kenapa,hati?

kenapa.

if and only if being a grown up is easy.
this is so much pain.

you love a thing, but then, something in your heart repel it.
it's just like something that is plain stupid or irritatingly serious.
but again, you love it.
arghhhh.

ya Allah
kuatkan hati ini
temankan hati ini
ingatkan hati ini
kerana sekarang lemahnya hati ini
kerana sekarang semuanya seperti hilang.

omnomnomnom

stolen from 9gag.
sumpah comel
.rasa nak gigit2 je. isk

boulevard of memories

i am at malacca now.
every roads i take are like boulevard of memories. still frozen. but with more buildings. and pain.

but what i miss the most is the breeze.
the smell.
the home. was home.


i miss the people too. but i cant took my phone and dial some number to say i am here now. i feels like i dont have the right to do that because i was the one who went away.

maybe one day. when everything seems going into places again.