Indeed HE is the best listener.

Early this year, 

knowing there was a lot unfinished business i need to settle down, 

and i just don't know how ; i was so miserable. 

I was in the phase of upside down.

I was thinking that i failed in everything i did.

My job,

my studies,

my love life,

all were in disaster. 

i was so much depressed about my job and also how i still did not finish my final year project. Not to forget being left by someone that i thought he might be the one even how much mistake he made i was still believe he might be. 

but i was wrong.
again.
and it feels like everything is breaking into pieces. 

tapi,

jalan Dia sungguh indah. 

dan aku sendiri tidak tahu bagaimana Liyana yang dahulu menangis tiap malam kerana hati sendiri, 

kini berada di sini.

He sent someone to help me and now in few days I'm gonna finish my degree. I'm gonna walk down on that stage that I thought I would fail doing so. 

He planned my life so well that i can help my mom paying our new family car that I never thought I managed that at my age.

He let me hurt so bad so i would realize there's someone out there that have been waiting for me for years,would never stop praying for me but it's only me never saw him coming.

:')

Indeed He is the best planner.

Indeed He is the best listener.

He hear you.

always.

keep praying. :)

words.

words bleed.
Use it wisely.
Lesson learned.

if you could turn back the time. what would you change first in the first place?

Here Comes the Sun :)

Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun,
and I say, It's all right

Little darling
It's been a long, cold lonely winter
Little darling
It feels like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun,
and I say, It's all right

Little darling
The smiles returning to the faces
Little darling
It seems like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun,
and I say, It's all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes (5x)


Little darling
I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling
It seems like years since it's been clear

Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun,
and I say, It's all right

Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun
It's all right
It's all right


:)

takdir.

I would like to write here.

A lot.

there is a freakin amount of stories i would love to write.
But there's no word shall describe what i want to jot down right now.


Fate is so unique.
unique in a such way human being could never describe it.

Dan akhirnya,
setelah lama berfikir,

aku berharap mereka yang tahu, doakan yang baik - baik sahaja.
kerana aku sendiri tidak tahu takdir ini akan bawa ke mana.

and indeed,

He took away what you want, but He would give the better one for you.
:')

timelessness

Rindu.
Rindu pada Dia.
Ingin mengadu,
mengeluh,
meminta,
semua pd Dia.

That feeling was so calm until kau tertunggu-tunggu.
Rindu pada rasa sayang, tenang kerana mengetahui rindu ini hadir kerana Dia juga memanggil.


Seminggu sudah bukan?
InsyaAllah mlm ini ya?
:')

"Kerana akhirnya, hanya Tuhan yang akan datang memeluk kau dengan tenang"

Love yourself

I've been neglecting myself for so long.
I failed to realize that loving myself, being happy with myself is much more important
rather than accepting how others doesn't approved what and who am i right now.

I sat there.
Doing nothing even I know if I am with them, I, myself, would not like me either.
I'm learning now.
To love myself more.
The definition of loving my own self is being happy for who i am now, for how i look,
for how well enough I handle myself.

The bright things about having your own job right now is, you can plan whatever you want
with your money without feeling guilty.
*evil laugh*

and also responsibility.
but, everyone is going through with it.
So if they can do it, why can't I?

Do things that make you happy. Not making them happy.
I used to be so ignorant when people talking about my weight and the way I faced it was
I closed my ear. Pretending that nothing happen and eat much more and at night I will regret it before going to sleep because I know I was not happy. I should do something.

But I didn't.

Because I believe I will always be fine.

It turns out, I am not.

Learning that you are getting older some of your body part getting easily in pain because of the pressure, tension and weight, is not healty at all.

so yeah, that's my first call.

Be happy for yourself.
As long Allah approves it, do everything you can to be as calm as the blowing wind and
will not regret it before going to sleep at night.

Because you will say,

" I am  glad I did that today. Alhamdulillah . :) "

What I learned also,
don't put your happiness on someone else. Because that show how broken you are.
Hold it. Hold it yourself as it is the most precious fragile thing in this world.
Do things for yourself.
Live for yourself.
Live for HIM.