becoming better

I realized I had been writing less here.
I wish I could write more.
So here we are.


I've been working in the new branch for the past 3 months.
Cyberjaya.
I like it here.
But it is lonely.
Because most of the staff are at LHDN - on site.

Tbh, it is lonely here.
 I just want to go home sometimes and hang out with my friend, old colleague. It's much more fun.
But I wanna stay here.
I wanna learn.
I wanna see new things.

As we become older we tend to emphasize on how to become better.
And I choose this way.

arghhh mana nak carik semangat kerjaaaa niii T.T




be happy.

I'm going home next week.
:)

#reminder1

Enjoy the moment, Liyana.
Stop worrying about the future.
Live your life well :)

Future

if you ask me, how do i keep my poker face around someone who had hurt me so much but then i have to face that
person everyday ?
and also how we both can be friends like nothing happen before?

i would answer,

because my career is much more important than that person.
the pain will go away.
but my career; that one thing solely belongs to me, will always be there dgn izin Allah.
I choose this way instead of running away.


well, i did choose that once. And i realize that only make me weaker.

 no one know the future. our future.

but, i would like to highlight here,
future is subjective. it can be change.
with usaha, doa, tawakal and also with the fact y kau aware tiap pilihan kau buat ada risiko tersendiri yang kau ikhlas ambil dan lalui.

tidak ada yang terbaik pada setiap masa actually.
apa yang tak baik hari ini utk kau mungkin baik pada 2 3 tahun hadapan.
and apa yang baik hari ini mungkin tidak baik untuk tahun seterusnya.

what makes it a difference is how we accept and interpret it on our own way.
and at the same time, it will test our level of acceptance on everything Allah had plan.

remember that Liyana. remember that always.

yakin.

yakin dengan Allah.
yakin dengan perancangan Dia.
yakin Dia maha memegang segalanya.

i used to always reminding myself,

"Meminta pada Allah, bukan pada manusia."

It seems i keep forgetting that now.  should remember it again. always.

Faham.

Kadang,
Kita cuma nak orang yang kita sayang,
Faham,
Betapa susahnya kita untuk lupa satu satunya kenangan yang paling pahit kita ada.

Resah.
Gelisah.
Sebab sedaya upaya cuba untuk tidak berfikir semula yang ia boleh berlaku lagi.

Kadang,
Bertahun berlalu
11 tahun dikira,
Tidak menjamin apa-apa.
Kerana aku masih ingat,
Suara yang aku dgr maghrib itu, esok pulang sebagai jenazah.

Kau tahu berapa jam jarak tersebut?
Tidak sampai 12 jam aku kira.
Dan kau cuma mampu duduk berteleku di sudut dinding memeluk lutut, sambil tersenyum melihat orang yang lalu lalang.

Tiada air mata.
Tiada rasa apa.
Kosong.
Yang datang menepuk bahu dengan mulut yang berkata kata tidak ada satu pun y dengar ke telinga.

Kerana dalam hati masih berharap yang
terbujur kaku itu bukan orang yang selama ini menjadi tempat kau berpegang erat.

Benar.
Kita dan mati hanya sejarak satu garisan.
Garisan halus.
Yang bila sahaja mampu putus.

Jadi.
Kamu.
Tolong.
Aku merayu.
Cuba sesaat rasa bagaimana jadi aku yang tersenyum di sudut dinding itu.

because

Trust the words.
Trust Allah.
Let Him plan everything you need. 
because whoever you are at the end,
 you belong to Him.

hello

Hello 2016 :)

Tengok archive blog, dah tujuh tahun rupanya aku menulis dalam ni.
If dinilaikan dengan umur, dah masuk darjah satu dah. :)

I don't know why, honestly i've been waiting for 2016.
sebab aku suka nombor 6. haha.
I do have a few favs number.

3, for my birthday date.
6, I just love number 6. I don't know why.
10, birthday date.

and 21. I just like it.

2016 is quite different. I want it to be different. I want to value myself more
and start appreciating on what is around me all these time.

and also, I will be transferred to KL for our new project.
should have been there since 26/12 but the BRS meeting will only start on 18/1.
However they had re adjust the schedule and new date is 11/1.

That means it's my last week on JB .

I don't know to whom i would do the TOT. sebab mmg bos tak hire orang baru ni.
HRMS team just left with kak iza and our boss. also kak yati on off jb-kl.

Kak zai had resigned. but she will continue doing freelance for KPTM project;the one i'm going to handle later in KL.

Kinda gigil weh nak drive ke KL sensorang. nak cari rumah lg. haha

but may Allah ease everything.
i wish everything is well.

Hai H, i miss you.
be safe there.
ily.