heavy.

lately,
i feel heavy.
a lot of things keep playing in my mind.
and for some reason i feel empty. 
something that is always happen and i always rarely think why.

while sitting alone, thinking back what had i done, i just remember something.
i totally forget Him.
heavier without Him.
emptiness happen.

after perform maghrib,
i took the love letters.
and start to read it.
almost an hour.
i only read surah ar-ra'd.
and i cant read it smoothly.
the sign that show i had leave it too long.

hina rasa.




and after kiss it, i feel lighter. mild. 
 the emptiness start dissappearing a little.
only a little.
a sign that show i should read it more.