sick

i'm sick
i'm afraid
i'm not okay
i'm scared.
scared if i couldn't make it.
ya Allah.  :'(

just give me a reason

Right from the start

You were a thief

You stole my heart

And I your willing victim

I let you see the parts of me

That weren't all that pretty

And with every touch you fixed them

Now you've been talking in your sleep oh oh

Things you never say to me oh oh

Tell me that you've had enough

Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

We're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand

Where all of this is coming from

I thought that we were fine

(Oh we had everything)

Your head is running wild again

My dear we still have everythin'

And it's all in your mind

(Yeah but this is happenin')

You've been havin' real bad dreams oh oh

You used to lie so close to me oh oh

There's nothing more than empty sheets

Between our love, our love

Oh our love, our love

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

I never stopped

You're still written in the scars on my heart

You're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Oh tear ducts and rust

I'll fix it for us

We're collecting dust

But our love's enough

You're holding it in

You're pouring a drink

No nothing is as bad as it seems

We'll come clean

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again

Oh oh, that we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

we are not broken just bent. 

my heart cried listening to this song.

no, nothings happen. 

it's just, it's beautiful.

a lesson that teach us to learn to love again. 

i mean, the love never gone actually. it's just dull.

it's like when it's already gone, that's the time we appreciate it the most. 

but when it's there, we rarely cherish it. 

we need to learn to love again.

not starting new with someone else. 

because that one person is hard to find.

sinner

source

in dilemma.
dilemma.
after a lot of thinking, the right thing i should do is the thing i don't want to.
but it is the right thing.

hutan lipur sg bantang. bekok :)

semalam we went to air terjun bekok.
a roomate-girls day out. it's a lucky sem we get into the same room for college :)
redeem wish sem lepas y tak kesampaian . :)

i dont know what to write. so, let's put the pics in ! :D

we decide to get mandi mandian here sebab memang terlingdung dari orang lain. since i want to mandi2 tanpa tudung we got the best spot. yeayyy ! :D i dont know kalau ada best spot lain. sebab orang y sampai lepas kami semua naik pergi atas lagi. kami ingat kami dah paling atas. isk. 

p/s; but the bad news is, tak lama lepas tu  ade couple dtg dok mandi but we act we own that place hoping they would go away faster. HAHA

Then, we made them jealous by eating nasi ayam after round pertama main air. they just looked at us while eating kacang cap ibu jari. kot? 

we managed to own that place only for us after a while. yes. yes. yes. dah boleh buat gimnastik berirama dalam air. 

Ahhhh i already miss this place. rasa macam nk bawak family datang sini. sgt nyaman :)

kat sabah pun ada sungai air terjun macam ni. and it's even colder. but what i like it here is that, while you were mandi2, pokok2-daun2, melindungi atas kepala anda. bila mandi, padang atas, rasa macam tengah buat jungle tracking padahal tengah mandi. the sunlight barely touch your skin. :) rasa macam ada kanopi atas kepala. kalau hujan pun tak terasa sangat. 

ni kitorang sume da siap mandi dah :)

taken from a nintelogy stealth i9500. not bad kan? tak nyesal ai beli. 

nampak tk kawasan air tenang tu? that is our spot right there ;) nmpak cetek kan? tak . dalam kot bahagian warna gelap tu. sampai paras leher . leher aku la. hehe. so mostly we just dancing close to the batu besar tgh tu. and sambil berlakon kami sebenarnya mandi tempat area dalam. HAHA

ni area belah bawah.

WE WENT TO DENAI BERBATU :)

masa nak datang sini kami terasa seperti dipermainkan perasaan. isk isk isk T_T

dari uthm ke simpang nk masuk bekok dah more than 50 km. we were ok with that. 

and then, dah masuk simpang, its said lagi 11km. okay. kami dah exited tahu? wuwuwu T_T

bila dah over 11 km ade satu pekan and it said lagi 4.3 km . 

lepas tu dah lepas 4.3, tambah lagi 3 km.

dah masuk pintu gerbang yang gambar bawah ni, lalu lorong kecik barely muat dua kereta dalam 2 km kot. mase tu aku y tgh drive betul ke tak jalan ni. mase tu kluarkan ayat sedapkan hati je. sebab we only berselisih dengan satu kereta masa tu. hilux putih. 

akhirnya samapi jugak :')

Semata nak amek gambar ni, lepas mandi, kitorang parking la kat depan entrance ni kan. parking belah kiri jalan. i was the one driving. and wahid sit next to me. buka je pintu nk melangkah keluar, she said "eh, ape packing foil kecik ni? klimaks? condom? condom weh ! " that thing was there on the grass. i guess we had park the same spot they-who-throw-this outside. HAHA

Nad,emi, wahid :)

mereka tak dikenali. the main purpose was to capture those small brown house. itu pusat renjer kot. aku pun tak igt. jalan bukit belah kiri atas tu la tempat parking. we still got lucky that day sebab kami sampai and get the LAST parking spot. y lain sampai parking je kat kaki bukit tu. 

that's all. no picture of me sebab mandi without tudung. and nk letak gmbar depan gerbang tu tp rasa diri lebar sgt. wuwuwuwu T_T

after that we went to JPO and takde gambar berempat sebab busy shopping kat PADINI dimana satu tshirt only RM9.00.

hehe