both of you.

we'll never know when we would fall for another person.
no matter how we deny it,
sometimes it just happens.
those big wave storms in your heart are eager to get out,
fills with annoying smells of feeling that should be beautiful but in denial either it was true
or not.
to spill it out.

it start with a simple smile,
a simple gesture of care,
a small talk about what your favorites are and it suddenly you both shares the same favorites.
It's 3 am and you are still talking to each other.
Both of you talks about the most undisclosed story in your life even though you had only been that close not more than a week.
You exchange the  role of the listener and the story teller to each other. and that seems so right.
Like everything had fall into places.
maybe because you never had this kind of conversation.
it's like both of you are in your own world.
it's like both of you are in the same wavelength.
You answers before that person questions it. vice versa.
Both of you finish each other sentences in a perfect rhythms.
in a perfect way.
Both of you shares the same thoughts,
the same amount of hatred to what you both hate.
the same amount of passion to what you both love.
the same amount of desire to what you both still yearning to achieve.

a stupid jokes that no one gets but when both of you say it, it make sense.
you both laugh and no matter how silly the jokes sound, you know you have found a keeper.
a misshapen of what would something random will become something awesome
and you'll never know about it in the first place.

but apparently, you know that person is untouchable.
Impossible.
because that would be absurd.
unthinkable.
because that piece of mind thinking of owning that person is overrated.
far-fetched from reality.
because that would be outrageous to those who won't understand.
it is preposterous.
because every person who is outside from both of your world would say it is ridiculous.
Because you can't own someone who already taken.

you don't wanna messed it up.
so you'd been really careful thinking what would happen next.

"So what's the plan now?
Are we or won't we?
So what's the deal now?
Should we or shouldn't we?"

too many plot you are trying to escape because you know how absurd all those imagination you had created.



the unforeseen ending.
that's what make it so special.
because unbeknownst to each other,
both of you had bubble wrap each other heart,
since the first time you had that conversation.
and you both realized the other person are writing the same pieces of mind.
just like yours.

hectic.

i just wanna say, working life does sound like fun.

but.

but.

but.

with great power comes with great responsibilities. *marvel quotes. lol *


the stresses,
the risks,
the nuances and dramas,
the everything yang kau rasa ini lagi tekanan dunia daripada dunia amik PSM(FYP).
this is everyday PSM.
kau tak siap kerja,
bos kejar,
senior kejar,
client kejar,
deadline pun kejar.

sometimes i do think i just wanna quit this job duduk rumah belajar menjahit lagi baguslah.


but sometimes i do enjoy it.
great teammates,
 warm officemates,
and protective boss.


do it, little darling.
take it or leave it.

Lights and Camera - Yuna

i love this song to the bit. 

How painful this song to hear but she mad it like she's strong enough to face it and morphed it into a song.

she made it so cool and it become the song for someone that are losing what to believe. 

i adores her.

she's alone out there but she's trying her best.

with no family and friends besides her, she just move on and up. 

hello Yuna.

Lights

Camera

Struck a pose

And if someone help you

Lipstick on

Yeah

High heels higher

Six feet tall

And everybody knows

Who you are

And nobody cares

If your heart is aching

Nobody cares

If you want no more

Nobody wants to know

You cried the night before

Vaster your dreams and your hopes

Into it

Everything you used to know

Is gone

And you're slipping into in your own

Trying not to lose yourself

[Chorus]

Cos these lights won't kill me now

Saying these clothes won't change me now

Saying these words won't scare me now

Saying I will be myself

I will be myself

Friendly people

All around

And time to put

Your best face on

Yeah

Smiling like there's

Nothing wrong

Though deep down you feel

So alone

Nobody sees who you are inside

Nobody knows you are so much more

Nobody needs to know

You're tired of putting a show

Vaster your dreams and your hopes

Into it

Everything you used to know

Is gone

And you're slipping into in your own

Trying not to lose yourself

[Chorus]

Saying these lights won't kill me now

Saying these clothes won't change me now

Saying these words won't scare me now

Saying I will be myself

Cos these lights won't kill me now

Saying these clothes won't change me now

Saying these words won't scare me now

Saying I will be myself

I will be myself

Nobody cares

If your heart is aching

Nobody cares

If you want no more

Nobody wants to know

Nobody cares at all

[Chorus]

Saying these lights won't kill me now

Saying these clothes won't change me now

Saying these words won't scare me now

Saying I will be myself

I want be myself [x3]

uncertainty.

Who are you to tell me what i don't deserve?