fate really has an unique way to be meddling around with our life.

Parachute - Cheryl Cole

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
Won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall down

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
Won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody
They want to see us fall they want to see us fall

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down


Don't believe the things you tell
Yourself so late at night and
You are your own worst enemy
You'll never win the fight
Just hold on to me, I'll hold on to you
It's you and me up against the world
It's you and me

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I won't fall out of love, I won't fall out of
I won't fall out of love, I won't fall out of
I won't fall out of love, I won't fall out of
I won't fall out of love, 

I'll fall into you.

silence.

i keep in silence.
not because i wanna run away.
but because i'm trying to get a grip here.
now.

.

I am a mean person.
I am.
Indeed.
Forgive me.
or maybe you don't have to.
because i am the evil one.
i'll accept that.

Jangan terlalu.

It's true what they have said.


Jangan terlalu sayang.
Jangan terlalu benci.
Nanti makan diri.
Wait a minute.
someone really said this to me.
hmmm.

and.
Jangan judge people cepat sangat.
coz you'll never know bila kena batang hidung sendiri.
demmit.
I'm facing it now.

100 days

Last thursday, 1 Rejab,
genap 100 hari atuk dah tak ada.
My heart did cried.
But i dont want to show any tears.

for i believe atuk is always there.
Living his soul.
Dengan segala tugas yang diberi.


"Along, nanti atuk dah sihat, macam dilahirkan semula taw. tak ada sakit, macam orang muda lagi. Tapi nanti bila atuk dah sihat, atuk tak duduk sini dah. Atuk tak balik lagi dah. Kita tak boleh jumpa atuk dah. Balik pun jarang-jarang. Sebab Atuk ada tugas Allah bagi. untuk kelilingi dunia. Tolong mereka yang betul-betul memerlukan dgn izin Allah. Jadi masa ni la kita kena rapat dengan atuk. Nanti atuk dah sihat, atuk tak balik sini dah. "

That's what everyone said basically since atuk jatuh sakit. And itu pun atuk yang cakap.
Tak ada sorang pun yang mampu digest kata-kata kiasan atuk.
including me yang rasa tak logik langsung kata kata tu. sebab atuk dah tua. macam mana nak jadi muda balik. Atuk cant even walk. How he's gonna be young again.
no one. No one realized there is a way actually.
Which is perpisahan antara roh dan jasad.

When atuk left, after that we realised what is he trying to say to us for the past year.
It's true.
Atuk dah sihat.
He wont come back.
Datang utk melawat. Itupun sekejap.



Along rindu atuk.
sangat - sangat.